aloha

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HI

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hey, no one was smoking there why do you smell like smoke? i smelt fine. oh well i have a big headache I don't know why I insist on trying to stay on the net until my head explodes. I updated my blog... a long one. I'm going to update more often from now on, so I don't have to write so much each time, and the longer it is, the harder it is to publish. Anyways, I feel sick, I overate again. Why are you still friends with me? Huh? Hahha, you can do better. yes you need new study habits and I have a feeling I'm not helping :( I really want you to do good in school! No more movies... or anything else. Remember this is a public blog kiss and my parents read it. Anyways, my eyes hurt and I must go now. GOOD LUCK!

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i give up... i have every idea what you mean, kris.

well, today was apparently, what i'm looking at as the last straw, in reguards to guys.
when i think i'm over *ahem*... this is a public blog isn't it? i see him and it all goes spiriling backwards, and when i finally admit to myself i like him again, he acts like an ass.

back to the books for me.

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My averages are pretty good ... but school has kind of faded away to lesser importance now. I'm just sick of caring so much about school and coming home crying with 80's... I remember how sick it was when other people did that... "only 80 whine", but now I know how it feels, but whatever. It's all good. I was just pmsing I gues, but all of my teachers have seen my cry now... Sick. Hahah you admire me for my selfconfidence? HAHAHAHA You know everyone is insecure at some point or anotehr bout themselves... It's just pure stupiditiy. It's good to alwas look for something to improve on I guess, but sometimes it's just so... saddening. Anyways, we had a good talk with Nick yesterday, whether it kept you up or not (sorry!) it was nice. I have a good feeling about it, but I'm still a little wary after what happeend... with... *ahem*. Anywyas I love spending time with you Kris :D Talk to you later. cheer up, I have gone over a million times why it's a GOOD thing that you and simon didn't end up dating. anyways good day!

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hmm... i can't seem to see the text on the page... ah well...

I AM SO DEAD!!!! report cards thursday... and i have two Bs and a C.... *WHAM WHAM WHAM* yeah, i know, it doesn't sound too bad for some people, but i'm doing everything in my power to get OUT OF THE U OF A!!!! ugh! *cries*

yeah, i don't think you need to hear my complaining... sorry. ;_;

The rain's pouring down
And you wish you could find
A deep hole in the ground
Aunt Red knocks on your door
And it feels like you're crawling all over the floor
And your boyfriend says
"Did you wake up on the wrong side of the bed today?"

Sometimes you just feel like ****
The tight pants that you have don't fit
Sometimes guys just make you sick
And you're looking for something to kick
You feel so lost in this pretty world
That's how it sometimes feels to be a girl

Your brother always has to complain
He don't understand
He think he's a real man
My favorite TV show is starting soon
Up with the ice cream and a spoon
Think positive my father says
"It's a wonderful soccer game today!"

Sympathy can be OK
But not when I feel horrible like today
---M2M - Sometimes

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nice kris. you know if you ever need anything i'm just a block away :D you're a great girl and a lot of guys would die for you, but you choose wisely. he may be a good friend, but if he doesn't know what he wants and he starts something inyou, triggers an emotion that wouldn't have surfaced otherwise, then he's just immature and unwise. you can do better, and plus you said you'd wait till university. even if he dates another girl, you were going to wait till then in the first place, what's the difference? you'll feel better... things will look up! :D

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you can do better than him. you don't need someone like that causing stress in your life. you're better than that, you always have me. :D it was fun having you over those two nights. haha, i read that you got 57% andi thought that was in physics, and i'm like 'i'm such a failure'. i hope you did good, and i'm sure youdid. anyways i'm at school and i just got in trouble for using this so i best make it short and sweet. yeah, bora wouldn't do anything, but, i coudl tell something was up. just... be careful? anyways, gonna go now. don't worry, this year will be great, you've only had like 3 months so far. just wait it out, things will look up. love, nyssa

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